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Hypocrite alert! 🤷♀️ Yep, I got my hair bleached using toxins, lots of toxins! The stuff I avoid because it's bad for you. But you know what? I've wanted to do this to my hair for so long and now that I face the possibility of losing my hair to treatment again, I thought fuck it, now is the time.💇♀️ Thanks to @ellie_ann_king in @funky_fringes for her patience and determination to get it right. It was a two day process but we did it in the end and I can't stop looking in the mirror. Sure I'm only gorgeous!❤️ P.s, sorry mom!🙈 #mcwellness #blondehair #dowhatfeelsgood #lovemyself #yolo #besthairdresser
Feeling blue today. I'm a bid to process the emotions I wrote a post on Patreon about it. I have never written something so dark, sad and emotional about myself. I've never felt sympathy like it for myself in the last 3 years. Link is in bio if you'd like a read ❤️ #mcwellness #fuckcancer #feelingblue #feelthefeelings
I wrote a kind of love letter to Istanbul while looking out this coffee shop window today. It felt good to write again. It flowed... I'll be doing more during my many future trips... Have a read if you like... Link in bio ⬆️ ⬆️ ⬆️ or find it on maireadmcwellness.com #mcwellness #istanbul #peoplewatching #flow
Looks like Turkey is about to become my second home again this summer! I've had a slight recurrence, best of a worst case scenario I guess! I have a few small lesions along my spinal column. I've had back pain for a while now and lately, it's had me living in fear that the cancer was back. That fear created anxiety which I was able to manage using the various practices I've adopted over the past couple of years including breath work, meditation, visualisation... But when I saw my scan today, I almost felt relieved that I didn't have to live in fear anymore, I know where I stand now. Sounds weird but it was a calm feeling, I knew deep down it was coming and I was expecting it today more than any other time I've gone for results. In saying all that... It's OK, it's manageable, it'll be under control again very soon. I've had 21 months of disease free living in this stage 4 journey which is a hell of a lot more than most people. Living with a chronic illness is just that, it's chronic, its living with... It's a flare up like any other illness. There'll be ups and downs and on and on it goes. I'll be trying my best to live life in between visits to Turkey, we haven't worked out a treatment schedule just yet but I'm in good hands. The best in the world in my opinion. #mcwellness #cancergoblins #onwego
It's the night before scan results and my mind has been working overtime going to the worst case scenario and what that will mean for the future... The thoughts have been dark! My last clear scan was in December and even though I've had some good indicators since then, the niggling aches and pains have put doubts in my mind and... Well catastrophising isn't the word!! I chatted on instastories about how I was feeling and oh my god most of the worry has lifted. I've spent most of the day ruminating inside my own head and now it's reduced massively by talking it out. I knew this. Why didn't I do it sooner?!? Anyway, the message is, it's good to talk! The candles are lit for a good result tomorrow. I love this little community. Thanks a gazillion for all the support, today and always ❤️ #cancergoblins #lightthecandles #clearscan #itsgoodtotalk #mcwellness